In Love With You

In Love With You 

I was standing in front of the ark of God in the old temple, I was watching the bright flame above it move and dance. I then felt a faint breeze and I heard I AM whisper my name. I then walked up the steps, feeling drawn I began to walk past the ark to the door to the new temple. I saw the two massive angels kneeling behind their wings as I walked past. I walked into the new temple and I was wearing a beautiful white gown. I stood in the doorway and I could see the 3 thrones off to the right. they where decorated with red cloth and beautiful flowers. I saw a red rug from where I was standing to the thrones. I noticed my clothes had changed from my jeans and t-shirt into a beautiful white gown. I was 10 years old in this encounter. I reached up and felt a crown on my head. I took the crown off and looked at it. It was gold and had beautiful jewels all around it. As I looked at it a part of me became sad, I thought to myself I don't deserve this. I then heard a voice from behind me. I turned and saw I AM he was wearing a white robe with a red sash. He asked me "Why are you so sad child?" I looked down at the crown I was holding and said to him "Papa, I don't deserve this. I feel I am not worthy enough to wear such a beautiful crown." he smiled and said "Sweet child you are worthy. I wish you would see your worth. I wish you would see how bright and clean you are in my Son. How you see yourself is skewed and distorted, trust me...it is not how I see you." he took the crown from my hands and placed it back upon my head. He kissed my forehead and said "I wish you could see...how much I love you." I looked down at the floor and he took his right hand and lifted my head so that my eyes would meet his and he said, "I am crazy in love with you and everything about you" I chuckled a little. I AM took my hand and said "Shall we?" I smiled and took his hand and he lead me down the hall to the garden door. He stopped in the doorway and breathed in deep "Child, I want nothing more then to spend time with you, to show you things you have never seen." he looked at me and continued "I want you to learn how much I truly love you. This way no matter what may come at you in life...you will never again have to question my love for you." I looked down at the ground ashamed because I knew I questioned his love all too often. I AM knelt down to meet my eye's and said "Child, do not be ashamed. I don't judge you for doubting, I see your heart. I know the love you have for me, I know your fears and doubts before you can speak them. I am not offended by your lack of understanding. Child, life has been hard on you. And I know many who have used that word Love and have shown you anything but what that word really means. I know it is hard for you to understand the Love I have for you, but know sweet child, it's there. Know there is nothing that can take it from you, nothing you can do will cause it to waiver. My love for you is vast and beyond your understanding." I began to cry, tears streamed down my face. I AM reached up and wiped away my tears and said "Child, sweet child, you mean more to me then you will ever know." he stood up, took my hand and we walked out onto the stone made patio in the garden. He lead me to a Daisy bush and stopped. I AM stepped in front of me, held both my hands and looked me in the eye's. He smiled then said "Look at the daisies and tell me what you see?" I looked down at the bush, the flowers standing tall and glowing a soft bright white. I looked at them for a moment when I noticed in the middle of this beautiful bush was a daffodil that had grown and bloomed. I looked at I AM with tears still in my eyes, but couldn't speak a word.  He said "I heard your cries for so many years, cries for freedom, to be loved, to be away from the pain. I counted every tear and sat with you through many dark nights. I know you think there where times I left your side, it broke my heart." He whispered "Know I did not leave your side...never...not once." I could see him fighting back tears, I began to weep. he reached out with both hands, embraced my face and said "I was always there, always....your darkest nights I held you in my arms, I wept with you." tears rolled down his face and he kissed my forehead. He wrapped his arms around me and said, "one day you will understand just how close I was." he kissed the top of my head as he embraced me tight. As he held me we cried together...after a few moments he stood up and took my hand. We walked together to a stone bench under a tree. I noticed as we sat down the sun was beginning to set. When we sat down he wrapped his arm around me and we watched the sun as it set. It slowly disappeared behind the mountains in the distance. After the sun was gone he said "look, look up at the sky" I looked up and saw so many stars I could not count them all. he said "You couldn't see the stars when the sun was up, when it was shining bright. It wasn't until the sun was gone that you saw all the stars, they where always there even though you couldn't see them." I turned and looked at I AM and I studied his face and eyes for a moment, but I could not speak. He smiled, kissed my forehead. I watched as tear rolled down his face he pulled me close and held me tight. And in that moment as we sat looking at the stars I thought, "What kind of God is this that would pull me so close and weep with me