Other Side 3-26-15

I was standing on a sandy white beach looking out to the ocean. I was wearing a light yellow long dress. I was barefoot and had a crown made of baby's breath in my hair. I watched the waves come and go. The breeze was cool on my face. I closed my eye's and just listened to the sound of the waves. After moment i felt my spirit stir and I opened my eyes to see The Spirit standing on the beach in front of me, facing me.  He, as always, was wearing a white hooded robe with the hood on his head. his hair a brilliant white and his eyes a clear/whitish fire. He smiled at me and I watched as the waves came in and washed around his feet up to his ankles then back out. after a moment he slowly walked up to me and placed his hand on my shoulder. He looked into my eye's and smiled then said "This is bigger then you know child...." I looked at him funny and asked "then what?" He touched my face and disappeared. I looked around and saw he was gone. I saw the  sky begin to fill with dark storm clouds. The sea began to become upset the waves tossing, growing larger and larger. I saw lightning flash striking the water. The wind picked up and began to blow hard but I wasn't scared or worried. I stood there on the beach as the rain began, it came down hard....but not one drop touched me. I stood and watched the waters rage and the sky grow darker and darker. The storm was now at it's worst and I closed my eye's and whispered "I need you" I heard a voice like thunder begin to speak, the voice shook everything. The words brought a peace to my whole being. The thunderous voice said "Ishma....El Shama" (means God will hear, God has heard). The storm stopped and the clouds parted and a bright white light shown down on me. the light was bright and warm. I closed my eyes and soaked in the light.  I opened my Eye's to see "I AM" standing out in front of me. He was wearing a white robe withe a deep purple sash. He was glowing a a soft white. He moved towards me and when he got to me he stopped toe to toe. he looked into my eye's. his eyes where like a bright glowing clear glass. There was soo much love in them. They pierced my very core and I felt light and free. he touched his forehead to mine and closed his eye's and said "I have parted the sea once...I will do it a million times more to see you get to the other side. Washing away..behind you all that chases you. There will always be a path through the rough waters, peace to your storm." he opened his eye's, his forehead still to mine and said "Keep your eye's on me child and know....nothing can touch you, nothing can overtake you." he embraced my face and closed his eye's he kissed my forehead gently then disappeared. I looked out to the sea that was still raging and I walked towards it. I held up  my hands and closed my eye's in worship. the ground shook and i opened my eye's the waters had parted and I stepped  out between these two walls of raging water and out in front of me on the other side I saw Jesus. I turned back and looked behind  me I saw words following me. I saw the words "Fear, Pain, Hopelessness, Dirty and  unworthy. I heard Jesus call my name and I looked back towards him and continued  to walk  forward.  I was about half way across at this point when the ground shook  so hard  I fell to my knees. I looked back just as the waves crashed down on thee words behind me washing them away. I stood back up and kept moving forward. I got to the other side  and  as I stepped up onto the beach I felt the water rush around my feet, bit this time I didn't look back I kept my eye's on Jesus who was I was now face to face with. He stood there and he smiled  at  me, there was so much love in his face. I stepped forward and he reached out to me and pulled me close hugging me tightly. Jesus was laughed and  kissed  my head over and over. He then stopped looked down  at me and said with excitement "come!...come child! walk  with me!" he put  his arm around my shoulder and i saw the Spirit appear next to him was a bright ball  of light. Jesus still had his arm around my shoulder and we walked into the light. 

No Performance 3-17-15

I was laying on the bed in the dark thinking about many things. I closed my eye's and I felt something move around me in a spinning motion. I could feel the light coming off of it. I opened my eyes to see a tunnel of light spinning around me as I laid there. It was maybe two feet from my face and it covered me head to to. I watched this light spin for a moment. Then I slowly reached up with my hand to touch it.  When my fingers touched the light it stopped spinning and became solid. I began to panic a bit not knowing what was going on. I looked above me and saw it covered my head then I sat up just enough to see it covered my feet. There was no way out. Then I heard a voice on the other side talking to me but I could not understand what he was saying because it was muffled. At first I started to cry, I was scared and had no Idea how to get out.  Then I felt my spirit stir, I stopped crying and reached up and touched the thing that had wrapped around me. When I touched it with my hand I saw red lines that looked like veins spread throughout this thing. my hand then went through it and I reached up with the other and began to pull it away. It broke through and I began to kick it and tare pieces off till I was able to sit up. When I sat up I had to put my arm up to shield my eye's from the bright light to my right. I saw Jesus standing there his face was like the son. I could make out the bottom part of his robe and I could see the out line of his hands as he eld them out to to his sides like he was getting ready for a hug. I noticed I was under a shade from a tree and as I crawled out of this thing I began to shake. I was wet and cold in the shade. The dress I was wearing looked was wet and looked like a pale purple. I wrapped my arms around myself shivering and stood there looking at him a little ways out. I was still in the shade of this massive tree the light coming fro Jesus just beyond the shade. I looked to my left and my right then slowly made my way forward. I closed my eye's as I walked forward because the light from his face was so bright. When I came to the edge of the shade and stepped into the light I slowly began to feel warm. I stepped out a little further with my eye's still closed and stopped. I felt completely warm and my dress had dried. the light died down and I opened my eye's to see Jesus smiling. I looked down at my my dress and it was a beautiful dark purple. I took the sides of my dress and held it out admiring it. I looked up and Jesus said to me "Casie, you doubt the fact you are a new creation time and time again. Sweet child, you still think there is so much to do...but the work is done. You are still trying, trying to earn my love, trying  to make up for things that I took care of.  I know things have been up and down. I know you don't feel New, changed, even some days loved. Don't be so frustrated child....It's ok to not be ready to be everything you want to be right now." he stepped closer to me looked down at me and smiled gently. Tears where streaming down my face. he reached out and touched my face and said "sweet sweet child....Just because a caterpillar turns into a butterfly doesn't mean it's ready to fly. Even new butterflies need to soak in the sun first before they take flight." I began to sob  as i felt a weight lift off me. He wrapped his arms around me and I buried my face into his chest and he said "you are beautiful no matter where you are at. You don't have to preform for me"  he kissed my head and I all went away.

Hand Print 3-2-15

Hand Print 3-2-15

I was eight years old in this encounter, and standing in the doorway that leads to the garden. My white dress had long sleeves that flared out around my hands, and covered them. The dress was constructed of heavy winter-weight fabric, but like always, I was barefoot. On my head was a crown of baby's breath and ivy, and around my neck was a golden locket with the word Beloved engraved on it. 

I put my right hand on the door frame and looked out over the garden where snow covered everything. It was so beautiful, the sun was beginning to set and the colors where bold and intense. I looked down at the snow and touched my toe to the snow and felt how cold it was. Pulling my foot back, I knelt down and placed my right hand in the snow, and pressed down enough to make an impression. I giggled when I pulled my hand back and saw that it was almost a perfect impression in the snow. I sat there a moment looked at my hand-print, then I looked around, I felt so small compared to everything around me.  

Then I heard someone coming up behind me. I turned to see who it was, and my heart was moved when I saw it was Jesus. I began to stand up, but I felt him place his hand on my shoulder and he knelt down next to me. He took his right hand and placed it over my hand-print in the snow.  His hand was much larger than mine. I could see the hole in his hand as he pressed it into the snow, and when he pulled it back, there were both our prints together. I wondered for a moment why my hand print was still there since he placed his over the top of mine. But then my attention was pulled to something else, I noticed the place where the hole in his hand was, in the middle of my hand print. 

He stood up, and so did I. I looked at the two prints in the snow and watched them slowly melt into one. Then the snow began to melt around the hand print and out away from it into the garden.  I stood there and watched It melt completely away from the entire garden. The tree's and grass still lush and green underneath the melted snow. I watched the sun began to disappear and the garden slowly become dark. 

Jesus took my hand and said, "Walk with me." So we walked out onto the patio. As we made our way to the waist high wall at the end of the patio I looked up and could see the stars, both bright and dim. Jesus stopped at the end of the stone patio, next to the stone wall and looked up, pointing to the sky he asked "Do you see the stars? I know every one of them." 

I looked around at the sky and asked "How can you know each one? There are so many of them." 

He looked down at me and smiled, "I created them. I created them with intention, with purpose, with life. I know every inch of each one; there is not a detail I have missed." He looked back up at the sky smiling. I stood there a moment trying to wrap my head around it and replied "That's a lot to try to remember!" 

Jesus knelt down and studied my face a moment, then said "Child. . .when you intentionally love someone, like I love you, it is hard to forget the very things that make you, you." He tucked my hair behind my ear and said "How could I ever forget that first breath you drew? The first song you sang? That giggle that made me smile?" His eyes filled with tears and he said "How could I ever forget the first time you reached back to me? or called my name? When you really love someone.(a tear fell down his face). . . You can't forget." 

In that moment my heart became so full of love, I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him tight. Jesus wrapped his arms around me he picked me up and held me tight. we both cried, but not out of sadness but love and joy. He kissed my head and cheek then whispered over and over "I love you so. . .so much." 

When I first met Jesus 1987

God Encounter

1987

"When I first Met Jesus"

I was seven years old and I was laying in my bed. It was the middle of the night, and my dad had just left my room. I laid there just weeping in pain, thinking how disgusting I was. I remember I whispered in the darkness "I just want to disappear." Shortly after, I fell asleep. 

I had a dream that night, that I was walking through a field of tall dead grass. As I walked, black storm clouds began to cover the sky above me. The wind picked up and it was so strong I thought it would knock me down. The sound of the wind was loud as it blew around me. I crossed my arms and continued to walk the field while fighting the wind.  Lightning flashed, and thunder began to rumble, and it began to pour. But I kept walking forward. 

Then, men in black hooded robes gathered in a circle around me. I turned around and saw no way out. They began to chant something all together. Between them, the wind, and the thunder, the noise was so loud! I walked around the circle and then to the center. I began to scream over and over for help, but the noise was so loud, I couldn't even hear my own screams.  Suddenly, a bright white light shone from the sky and the storm stopped. The men that had surrounded me hit the ground face down and stopped chanting, completely silent. 

In awe of what had just happened, I walked a little way around the circle when I heard my name from behind. I turned around, and there stood a man. I didn't know his name, and his face shone like the bright white light I saw in the sky. I didn't know the man's name, but everything inside me was drawn to him. He held out his hand, and I saw the hole in it. He said to me "Come follow me." I hesitated, but I reached out and took his hand, and when I did I woke up.