Rest 2014

Encounter with God 2014 

Rest 2014

In this Encounter I was seven years old, wearing a white robe with long sleeves. I was standing in the first room of the castle in Heaven. I saw the staircases on my right and one on my left going up to the second floor where all the rooms where. In front of me was the room filled with light. I saw The Spirit standing off to my left. He walked over to me and said "He is waiting for you Child." He took my hand into his and said almost in a sad way "I am here for you." I looked at him funny and he touched my face. His eyes where like a white yet clear fire. He took my hand and turned towards the light. Together we began to walk through to the other side. When we got there the Spirit let go of my hand and stepped back. And disappeared in the white light. I saw that I was in a all room wrapped in white light. Then I saw a big white rounded type couch. It was so big I bet I could have fit 3 king size beds on it with no problems. I walked over to the couch and I touched it. The leather was Leather and cool to the touch. I heard from behind me "Sweet Child." I turned around to look at him. He had on a thick fur robe. He walked over and put his hand under my chin. I AM smiled then tilted my head up a bit and he kissed the tip of my nose. He took off the fur robe that covered him all the way to the floor. His robe was made out of white light. He climbed on to the couch and sat back. I AM had a smile on his face and He motioned for me to join him, so I put my arms through the sleeves on the robe to hide my shame and fear from him. I then I crawled across to meet him. I knelt down next to him on the couch, I looked at him then down at my covered hands. I AM pulled the sleeves back and he kissed my hands, and held them looking them over. Then he looked at me and asked "Why do you hide from me?" I tried to pull the sleeves back over my hands and I began to cry. "I AM" placed his hands over mine and said "shhh....Child, I am not wanting to take comfort from you. I know you find comfort in hiding, I am not trying to take that from you. It will get better with time. I have seen what you have walked through, I have heard every replayed thought, every moment you remember. I feel the hurt and agony you try so hard to push down and hide. Can I ask one thing of you?" I sat down on the couch and said  in a faint whisper, "yes." He looked at me, took my hands and he said "instead of hiding from me...will you instead hide with me?" I looked at his eyes and studied them a moment, but I said nothing. He pulled me onto his lap and began to stroke my hair. I laid back against his chest, I AM kissed the top of my head and he said "I know you still struggle with trusting me, I know. But I will still be here, with you through every joy, pain, and darkness. I know who you are and where you are going, and I am there." he held me a tad tighter and said, "right now you just need comfort, security, and love.....so rest with me"

Apples 2014

God Encounter 2014

Apples 

I was sitting on the bench out in the Garden at the new temple. There was a tree next to me and it's branches above me where spread wide giving me shade. I am about 15 in this encounter, wearing a long white dress. I was looking out over the lake that was there. I was deep in thought when I heard my name whispered on the breeze. I closed my eye's and listened, the whisper touch every part of my being, even to my core. I opened my eye's and saw I AM before me. "What are you doing child?" I looked up at him and he reached down touched my face and smiled. He whispered "I see you had a tough day." I looked at him and said "Maybe" and i looked away. I felt embarrassed and shame, "I always try to be strong, like a warrior." I thought. I AM sat down next to me but i was too embarrassed to look his way. So he leaned over and nudged me "What did you learn?" I sighed and said "A lot." He chuckled softly "So why aren't you smiling?" I looked at him with confusion and "What?" He stood up and the tree above me filled with apples. I AM reached up and pulled an apple off the branch and looked at it. He asked "Have you forgotten?" He looked down at me with a smile. "Forgotten what?"  He took my hand and placed the apple in it and said "How many apples are you holding?" I looked down at the apple and I remembered this lesson. I began to feel bad for not remembering what he had taught me. I looked down at the ground with shame. "I AM" knelt down to meet my eye's "Too many apples? Let me and those who love you help you. A warrior cannot fight a mighty battle alone. You need support and love." I was reluctant to accept his words. I AM moved to meet my eye's and said "I know it's hard for you to ask for help, you want to be strong and brave. You want to show everyone you can do this on your own, But child you can't, you weren't meant to carry all this alone."  He smiled softly "Even a warrior needs rest." He took my hands and said "There is no pressure, only wisdom." The tears where streaming down my face. He reached out pushed a strand of my hair back behind my ear and kissed my forehead. I AM looked me in the eyes and said "Come walk with me." I placed my hands in his and we stood. He pulled me in to hug me. He held me tight for a few moments. He said "Put the apples you are trying to juggle and control and leave them on the ground. I will take care of them. I promise I have so much more for you." He pulled back and looked me in the eyes and searched them a moment. Then he said "You are okay, you are. Live that Joy you have found in your heart. It's still there, it hasn't left. Your distracted and anxious trying to make things seem perfect, and you can't hold what I give you if you have and armful of apples." I chuckled and wiped a tear from my face. He hugged me tight and he kissed my forehead. "I promise child, we will get through this together"

What I say 2014

God Encounter 2014

What I say

I was in the old temple in the back by the doors, I was 10 years old in this encounter. I turned round and touched the massive door and it opened just enough for me to step out of the old temple.  Standing at the top of the steps I saw the mass of people outside in their blue robes. I heard their many different songs rise into one. The sound was loud, but beautiful. I stood and listened for a moment then I turned back to the massive door which was now closed. I walked over to it and stood before the door. I saw the design and the letters I couldn't read on the door. The letters where at eye level. I was wearing a long white dress, long enough I had to pull it up a little just to walk. I reached out to touched the writing on the door softly with my fingertips. The letters on the door slowly turned red and they opened. When I stepped into the old temple the feeling had changed. I looked to my right and I saw a Guardian angel slowly kneel and cover himself with his wings. I looked to my left and the angel on the other side did the same. Before when I came into this temple it was a sense of uncertainty and a place of hiding and security. Now the feeling was of belonging, royalty and safety. I began to walk forward and when I came to the first column in the back I reached out and wrapped my arm around it, it was so large my arm didn't even make it half way around. I stood there and looked around. Out in front of me was the place the Ark of God had set the first time I had been there. In it's place stood I AM. He smiled and reached out his one hand to me. I stepped onto the maroon rug and slowly made my way to him. He was standing in front of the ark. I AM stepped down one step and I stepped up one. He looked at me with such love and said "Do you realize how amazing you are? Do you realize how far you have come?" I shook my head "no" he stepped down to my step and linked arms with me and said "The world will never understand your journey...so stop trying to get them to." With arms linked, we walked up the steps together and past the Ark. We continued down the platform to the door to the new temple. The two angels there knelt and covered themselves with their wings, and the doors opened.  When we stepped through we where not in the new temple but in the first room of the castle in heaven. I saw the two massive stairways leading to the second floor where all the doors where. I saw the light before us which I knew where it lead. I let go of I AM's hand and slowly stepped forward, I was drawn to it's light. I pointed and said "I want to go there." I looked back at I AM and saw he was smiling and he said "lets go then." He took my hand and I covered my eyes as we passed through the light to the other side. When we got to the other side I saw Jesus standing there. Jesus walked over to me and knelt down on one knee to meet my eye's and said "hello my friend."  "Friend?" I thought, I hand never heard him call me that before. Jesus stood up and took my hand and I looked down at our hands. I saw the hole in his hand where the nails had pierced him. I took his hand and turned it over and over to look at the hole. It wasn't bloody or anything, just a hole. He touch my face with the other hand and said "It's ok...you can touch it" I hesitated and I placed my finger over the hole on his hand. I looked up at him and tears began to stream down my face, He tucked my hair behind my ear and said "Sweet child....You don't have to long for my forgiveness. Child, it has always been yours. There is nothing that stands between us, all those things forced upon you in darkness had been dealt with long before you even knew it was there. Sweet child....you are as innocent as the day you where conceived. nothing in your life has, nor ever will, steal you from my grasp." He stood up and I held tight with both hands to his right hand. I was afraid to let go. He touched my face with his other hand and said "I am still here, I will always be here." Through my tears I choked out the words "but what if I fail?" Jesus knelt back down, he studied my eyes. The smile on his face never left and he said "you can't." The tears still streaming, I became scared and held tightly to his hand, "I am so afraid! I don't want to lose this" Jesus cupped my face with his hands and kissed my forehead head and said "Child you have been trying to push me away for years, and still I have held you when you where at your worst. I have watched you kick and scream trying to pull away....Where does it lead you? Where do you end up? Always, with me." I fell to my knees and covered my face with my hands and Jesus pulled my hands away. When he did this my hands began to glow a bright white light and Jesus whispered "Clean....you are clean. nothing that you have done or that has been done to you can steal that from you." He took my hand and placed my finger over the hole on his hand and said "Because I made you that way. I made you clean, I made you PURE....you are what I say you are." He touched my face and said " you are nothing short of amazing." He kissed my forehead and my whole body glowed a bright white light. The light slowly grew brighter and brighter till everything faded.

God Encounter 2014 Together

God Encounter 2014

  

Together 

I am walking amongst daisies in the field behind the new temple. I am wearing a soft pink sundress. I am 7yrs old in this encounter. I looked around and marveled at them all. There where so many, and they danced in the breeze freely. I reached down to pick a few flowers. I bunched them together in my hand like a bouquet, I then smiled and kept moving. I felt so free and Happy. I could feel the warm sun on my shoulders and on my face. For a moment I stopped and closed my eye's to really get the feel of the warm sun on my face. The breeze was light but would occasionally whip around me, it was cool and refreshing against my skin. I ran and twirled in the field of flowers. I was laughing and singing the whole time. I looked up for a moment to see I AM smiling really big at me. He was watching me just enjoy the moment. I AM starts to laugh and clap his hands "You fill my heart so full with joy child!" I stopped and put the flowers against my lips, I grinned because he had caught me off guard and I felt a little embarrassed, but it was only for a moment. "Papa!" I ran to him with all that I was. He picked me up and hugged me tight. He tucked a piece of my hair behind my ears and asked "Whats that you got there?" I put the flowers to my nose and said "They smell perfect papa! I picked them for you!" He chuckled and said "for me?" I handed him the flowers and he smelt them and with a big smile said "You are absolutely right...they smell perfect!" He put me down and knelt down beside me, "You know what else?" He asked. I thought for a moment then replied "what?" He put the daisies I had given him down on the ground and picked up only one. He looked at it a moment and then looked at me and said "They look perfect too." He put the daisy down with the others and then picked them all up at the same time. He said "Child, one daisy is beautiful all by itself, but when you see them together like this....that one daisy becomes apart of something amazing." He placed the end of the stems to the ground. they immediately grew roots and the stems began to wrap around each other like a braid. I AM stood up and the daisies continued to grow and wrap around each other. he looked down at them then at me and said "Together they become stronger, together they multiply." He looked at me and said "The daisy was never meant to be alone, it was made to dance in the field with all the others. You where made to dance." He kneeling down on one knee in before me he placed his hand over my heart and whispered "But I can see you're scared. Dance like you do here with me. It is okay to be happy, you're free. The innocence you have longed for. Has never left. All these things around you will fade away." I looked down at the flowers and said "Does it mean..." I AM interrupted me and said "Just because your happy doesn't mean you don't love those you left behind. It doesn't right the wrongs and certainly doesn't mean you have walked away from your children. It just means you realize your safe, your clean, your on a new adventure. You didn't lose anything child, rather you have gained a life worth living. It brings my heart great joy to see you smile." He then reached out and tickled me till I laughed. Then he said laughing "Just like that" he took my hand and we walked through the field.

Black wall 2014

Black wall 2014

I am standing in the garden outside the new temple. I am leaning on the stone wall at the end of this stone paved patio. I look out and I see the mountains far from where I am. I see the lake and the trees. I closed my eye's and felt the brush of the wind on my face. I felt at peace in that moment. I heard a voice call my name from behind. I smiled and turned around. "I AM" walked over to me and embraced my face and asked "How are you today child?"  Tears formed then rolled down my face and I said "Papa...I" I couldn't finish what I was saying as he pulled me close and just held me. He looked down at me and said "I understand, there is no need for words." I held on to him tighter and he kissed my head. After a few moments "I AM" said "walk with me." He reached out for my hand, I looked at it and took his hand. He brought my hand up to his month and he kissed the top of my hand. The look in his eyes is full of life and love. He began to lead me into the new temple. He turned in front of the three thrones towards the new hallway, where the clear path leads to the castle. The door was already open and we walked through. we followed the path up to the gate. When we got to the gate he said "I see you child...I see the pain you still hold deep inside" He turned and continued through the gate. We passed many buildings that lined the street. Then we walked up to a building that was made of the same stuff the road we had been walking was made out of. Its like glass but it is not. From what I could see on the outside It was empty inside and clean. This building had no doors but I AM placed his hand on the building and the wall began to move like fluid. He walked through and I followed. When we got inside it was full of stuff. Chairs, tables, books, blankets and so much more. We walked through the first two rooms to a wall that was painted all black. It had a door in the center that was also painted all black. I could hear yelling and screaming from the other side. I also could hear someone sobbing on the other side also. I AM placed both his hands on the door and his forehead. He began to weep. I watched for a few moments and I AM closed his eye's and whispered "I love you, I love you" over and over. I stepped forward and put my hand on his shoulder. He reach with his hand to touch my hand then He stepped back from the door his eyes where red from crying. He reached out and touched my face and asked "Why do you do this to yourself?" I was confused and asked "do what?" he turned and opened the door, the room was dark. I could see a girl crouched down in the corner she was sobbing. she sat with her knees to her chest and her head buried in her knees. I was startled when yelling started from across the dark room. I couldn't see who it was but she yelled "you are an idiot! you are disgusting and worthless! You will never be clean!" I stepped into the room and the girl in the corner looked up. I stepped back in shock...it was me. Then the girl that had been yelling came across the room still yelling horrible things she ran to the girl in the corner cutting her arm. I yelled at her "stop!" the girl turned towards me with the knife still in her hand. I dropped to my knees I couldn't believe she was also me. "I AM walked into the room and placed his hand on my shoulder and squatted down to talk to me. He said "Child...this is what I see everyday. It breaks my heart the way you secretly punish yourself. You hold yourself hostage to the lies you still believe." I AM sat down next to me and said "you are not those things..." He touched the floor and the room faded away. We were now sitting on the floor of a white room. He touched the ground in front of us and a pool of water appeared. I AM pulled me into his lap then took my hands and placed them in his. He closed our hands then slowly opened them together. As our hands opened I saw a red rose blooming in my hands. He took the flower and placed it in his palm. He said "Many times you have tossed a flower into the water as a way to express your love to me. Child you are beautiful, pure....innocent" When he said the word innocent I began to sob. He took my hand and said "that's what you are....Child.  You can punish yourself, deny the love I have for you, you can even push away my forgiveness, But I want you to understand....those lies will leave you searching, empty and trying to receive what has always been there. Child..I know you are scared to feel love. This love...is real Love, It won't yell at you, call you names....it won't hurt you. It's ok to feel Loved. Its what you were created for." He reached out and touched the top of the water with his finger. ripples in a circle began to go out. He looked at me and said "I remember every flower you have placed on the water for me. So simple this act...but it touched my heart." He placed his palm on the top of the water and flowers filled the pool of water from edge to edge...except for the ring of ripples. There was every flower I remembered...daisies and roses to little wild violets and even dandelions. He looked at me and said "This rose in my hand...is for you." He placed the rose in the middle of the ring of ripples. I watched it float on the ripples of the water. He looked at me and said "I just want you to remember...I see you, I know you, and I love you Child, I know your heart cries out for your earthly father even though he did so many painful things. I feel that longing and pain as you watch so many have what you did not. Let me fill those gaps. let me be what he could not. Your fathers love was...twisted. I know this is why you fear to be LOVE." He stood up and so did I, he embraced my face and said "I will never hurt you...especially not like that." I began to sob so hard I fell to my knees. I AM knelt down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. He whispered "I love you sweet child...I always have"

My Room 2014

My Room 2014

I was seven years old in a long white robe standing in the new part of the temple. I stood before the 3 thrones of God. I looked around the room and I saw the doorway to the right down a new hallway with a door that was opened a little. I walked down to the door and looked at it. I could smell the sweet smell that came from the other side. I could hear the singing of the angels and I could feel the cool air flowing through the door. I stepped around and looked through the door. I saw the clear paved trail leading to the massive city surrounded by a wall. I could see the gate that "I AM" and I had walked through. My spirit stirred inside me. I turned around and I saw the Spirit smiling really big. I stepped back away from the door and he asked "What are you afraid of Child?" I looked down at the floor then back at him and said "I don't know if I can go in there" The Spirit chuckled and said "Of course you can! Come!" He took my hand and we walked through the door. I saw kids running through the green field around us and they were laughing. I saw some sitting under the trees outside the wall. The Spirit and I followed this clear path. You could see through path that looked like glass but was not. when we got to the gate of this massive city the Spirit stopped and said "Wait" we stood there a moment and I saw Jesus and I AM they where walking towards me and they were talking and laughing. they stopped a little ways out and "I AM" leaned forward placed his hand on Jesus shoulder and whispered something in his ear. He smiled really big then waved at me before walking away. I turned to the Spirit but he was now gone. I AM walked up to me bowed his head and smiled. He reached out his hand to me. He asked "Shall we? My beautiful Princess?" I took his hand and he pulled me close. He laughed and picked me up and swung me around then set me down. I AM was smiling and laughing the whole time he did this. He playfully took my hand and said "Now that you are ready for an adventure, let us go." We walked through the city past the building where we had communion. When we got past it I AM began to whistle a tune. I didn't know what it was but it made me smile. He looked down at me and smiled then continued to whistle.We continued to walk for a long time. Then I saw this Beautiful massive castle. It was a brilliant white and the roof was all a cobalt type blue. I asked "Where are we?" He stopped and knelt down on one knee and looked me in the eye's. He said "This...This is My House." he stood back up "Come, Let me show you." He began to whistle again. We continued on the path to a small red bridge that lead to the Castle door. I saw Jesus walk out of the castle onto the bridge and meet us on our side. Jesus put his hand on my head, smiled and said "Have fun." He looked at I AM then at me and continued to walk down the path we came up. I AM and I crossed the bridge and went inside the castle. When we walked through I saw a massive room the floor and columns looked like marble and where white with small specks of blue. I saw two massive stair cases leading to the next floor. one was on my right the other my left. I AM said "I want to show you something." So we walked over to the staircase on the left. As we walked up the stairs I looked a round. I looked down at where we were and I saw a bright light coming from a room on the first floor. When we got to the top of the stairs we started down what seemed to be a never ending hallway. I saw brown wooden doors on both my right and my left. each door had something written on it. After what seemed like a very long walk I AM stopped and turned to a door on his left. The door was wooden and looked a bit old. The door had the word "Peace" carved into it and a daisy carved just below it. I looked at I AM and asked "what is this?" He smiled and said "This is the place I am preparing for you." I looked at the door then back at him and asked "I am really coming home someday?" he chuckled and asked "was there ever a doubt?" He placed his hand on the door and for a moment he was quiet like he was contemplating something. He then looked at me and said "I have worked on this since the very first moment I thought of you. This is more then a room or space....This is more then you could understand." He knelt down on one knee and said playfully "But...I want to show you it." Then he got a bit serious, he placed his hand on my face and said "Child, you are more then a fleeting thought. You are more then just another face. You....You are my joy. A song that my heart sang and it became...you. Every person, every face I know in detail. I know your wants, your desires...I...Know...your heart. I know each one. I have made them more personal then a husband knows his wife, or a mother her child. Each is a song, a part of my heart....an expression of who I am to the world. You Child....I love your face, your heart...who you are. Everyday you learn who I really am, you learn who you are." He stood up and touched the door. He looked at me and said "Just so you truly know...there was never a doubt where you would be....never" Then the door began to glow a bright white and it opened. I saw a field of grass with wild daisies everywhere. I saw trees and a lake a little ways out from where we were. He took my hand and we stepped through the door. we walked through the grass towards the lake. He bent down and picked a daisy. He stopped and placed it behind my ear and said "I love you...more then you know." He turned and began walking to the lake. There where trees all around the edge of the lake. As we got closer I saw a hammock tied to two trees next to the lake. We walked over and he climbed into the hammock and laid back in it and motioned to me "Come Child lets rest together for a while." I climbed into the hammock and laid back. He wrapped his right arm around me and my head was on his chest. We laid there a while together. He would pull me close and kiss my head. I heard the birds singing and the rustle of the leaves. I heard the water moving and I felt peace fall over me. After what seemed like a very long time he said "You are safe now. You child are loved more then you know. Rest in my love." he kissed my head and I became sleepy.