Rose 5-23-15

I am in the garden behind the new temple. I am on the stone paved patio close to the building. I walk over to the stone bench and sit down. I notice I am wearing a white dress and I am barefoot. I look down and see smudges of dirt all over my dress. my feet are covered in dried mud. my hands and arms are dirty. I look around to see if anyone is there, when I realized no one was there I put my hands under me to try and hide them. I looked out at the garden in front of me, I was sad and tears began to stream down my cheek. I didn't know what to do. I then felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked up to see "I AM" he looked down at me and smiled. I tried to cover my feet by crossing them and covering them with my dress. Then I stuck my hands back under me. He walked over and sat next to me on the bench. I looked the other way and down at the ground. He asked me "Child, what is wrong." I couldn't look at him or even speak to him. He asked me " Can I see you hand?" I tucked them a little further under my legs and shook my head "no".  I then seen a rose appear in his hand. He looked the flower over as if he was in thought. he then got up and stood in front of me. he knelt down so his eye's could meet mine. I looked down at my dirty dress the tears still flowing. I could not hold them back at all. "I AM" put out his hand and he said " I am not judging you child. What you are trying to hide...I already know about." I slowly looked up at him and he smiled. "I AM" said "really....it's okay. It's all okay." I stopped crying and He reached out and wiped the tears off my cheek. He smiled gently at me and said "You know child, It's okay to be happy." he tucked my hair behind my ear and said "You feel so bad about things you could not control, and those things you could...I have forgiven. so why do you torment yourself so? You are not dirty....I know you feel that way, but you are not." He put the rose in his left hand and reached his right hand out to me and he said "I need you to trust that what I say to you is true." I looked down at my dress and all the dirt smudges on it. I pulled out my hands and looked at them. They where covered in dry mud. I pulled my feet out from under me and looked down at them, they where also covered in dry mud. I let out a big sigh and said then  "why do I still see it? Why can't I get rid of this feeling? Why can't I keep the dirt off?" he smiled and said "because you can't.....but I can." He took the rose and offered it to me. He said "It's a gift." I reached out and touched the petal of the flower with the tip of my finger and looked up at "I AM" he said "Seeing you like this breaks my heart. I want so much for you to see yourself as I see you."  I pulled my hand back and said "but after everything he did I...." "I AM" interrupted me and said "I know...you don't deserve it, right?  But  child  you do....you do deserve it. You deserve to be loved, cherished,  happy  and whole. Why? Because you are mine....and because I love you." He again  offered  me the rose I looked down at the dirt I was covered in then at him and I reached out and took the rose. When I took it I slowly began to glow a soft white light. all  the dirt fell to the ground and "I AM" smiled said to me "There you are." I was in awe  the caked on dirt was just all gone.  I looked at him with uncertainty and he took my  clean  glowing  hands and said "give it time...I am in no hurry." He leaned in and kissed my forehead and said "I love you as you are." He stood up and reached out his hand  to me. I took it and stood with him.  The sun was setting over the garden  and he said  shall we walk together? I nodded ""yes. we linked elbows and we walked the path out into the garden.