More then enough

More then enough

God Encounter 2015

In this encounter I am about 7yrs old and I am wearing a white sundress. I am barefoot and can feel the texture and coolness of the wooden floor under my feet. In front of me was a door, it was green but the painting on it looked old and distressed. The doorknob looked old as well, and was brown from age. I reached out to touch the doorknob and I noticed before my fingers touched it a red line began to appear.  It started at the key hole and slowly moved across the door to the other side. I heard a click, like it had been unlocked. I placed my hand I the doorknob and turned it. I pulled the door open and stepped inside the room. When I stepped in I found myself standing on a dark maroon rug with gold sides. The rug was as long as the room and was, which seemed to have no end, and so wide I could hardly see the walls in the distance.

This room was full of all kinds of things, like toys, furniture, clothes, jewelry, food, so on. There was no order to it at all. It was stacked in tall piles several stories high. It started from the wall by the door and ran the length of the room. I stood up on my tiptoes and then back down as I looked at all the stuff. Staying on the rug I walked a a few feet forward. I was confused about why the room was like this. Then I noticed a few feet in front of me on the rug a white piece of paper. I ran over to it and picked it up and it said "All this is yours, take what you need and want." I looked up from the paper then around the room. It was way more then I could ever want. I walked to the edges of the rug. Standing on my tip toes and looking at the piles and piles of stuff. But even though there where things I really liked I didn't step off the rug to take any of it. I looked at the paper and turned to walk back to the middle of the rug. The whole time looking at what the note said. When I looked up I saw I AM. He was wearing a white shirt, blue jeans, and was also barefoot. His jeans were cuffed up so you could see his feet. He smiled at me and I ran to him. He picked me up and gave me a huge hug and kissed me face and head several times. While holding me he asked "What have you got there child?" I looked at the note then at him and said "It's a note saying all these things are for me." I looked into his eyes. They where like light blue glass, it was like you could see forever in them. I asked him "Who is this from?" He smiled and said "It's all from me." I looked out at this massive room full of stuff and I AM asked me "Did you take anything?" I looked down at the note and then back at him. "No, no I didn't papa."  Tucking a piece of hair behind my ear he asked "Why not child?"  I looked down at the paper and began to fidget with it. I AM kissed my face and said "You are more then worthy of the things I give to you. I have made provision for you wherever you are and whatever you do." I looked at his eyes and I said "I know, I know you do. I get scared you won't sometimes but I know you will, you always have." He smiled and asked "But?" I looked at the paper and held it out to him and said "Without you it is all empty. If I have to trade you for any of it, papa I don't want it." He knelt down and placed me on the ground. He took the paper and laid it on the ground in front of my feet. Then He embraced my face and with so much love in his eyes he said "I...Love...your...heart." He kissed my forehead, he took both my hands and said to me "I give these things to you because I love you. I want to provide for you. To adorn and lavish you with all that I am. The blessings are not a trade off, but one of many expressions of my love. Child, don't fear about what comes and goes. Keep your eyes and heart on me and know that, I, your father," have it all worked out, taken care of, and established everything for the right time." I looked down at the paper and I bent down and picked it up. I held it to my chest and tears began to stream down my face. I looked at him and said "Though I don't understand why you would do this....thank you." With the paper still held to my chest "I AM" placed his hand over mine and said "Child YOU are worthy. You are worth the price I paid for you. You ARE worthy." He picked me back up and kissed my cheek. Then he walked down the rug away from the door I wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head against him...still holding the paper in my hand. A bright light surrounded us and it all faded away. 

Eagle 10-6-15

I was standing in the grass and before me was a line of mountains. The grass was as high as my knees. I am about seven years old in this encounter. I am wearing a white dress with a yellow sash around the waist. I looked at everything around me then I looked up to the sky. I saw a massive bird soaring above me. He flew in circles gliding on the wind ever so often. I heard a voice from behind me call my name "Casie". I turn to see "I AM". He had a really big smile on his face. He was wearing blue jeans that were cuffed up just above his ankles and was barefoot. He had on a white shirt and his hands were in his pockets. When he got up next to me he put his right arm around my shoulder and whistled really loud. The bird swooped down and landed in front of us. It was as big or bigger than a car. It bout with its wings spread out. The bird was a brown eagle. He walked over to the bird and begin to pet its head. The bird nudge him with his head and close his eyes indicating that he enjoyed his touch."I AM" looked at me and said child climb onto the eagle I want to show you something. I slowly walked over to the bird A bit nervous because of its size. The bird opened his eyes and watched as I walked around to the side of his face. "I AM" said "it's OK child you can touch him." I reached out slowly and carefully to touch the birds head. The eagle close his eyes and gently nudged my hand as I pet him. I saw a thin small leather string tied around his neck. "I AM" said "grab hold of the string and I will help you climb on the bird". He walked around to where I was and helped me get onto the back of the bird. "I AM" had a small envelope in his hand. He looked it over and said "This is for you child. When the moment is right open it and read what it says". He handed me the note. I saw on the back was a red wax seal. It had a design on it. The design looked like a small flame with ribbons coming from it. The bird stood up and I grabbed tight to the thin red leather string. The bird then began to fly, he got higher and higher. I laid down on him holding tight. My eyes where closed so tight it hurt. I was afraid to open them, I was afraid I would fall. I hear the eagle cry out.  And I opened my eyes enough to take a peek then shut them again. He flew for a little while and I began to relax my grip on him. I slowly began to open my eyes and sit up. I looked down and saw the earth below. The tops of the mountains and the valley. I was still holding the envelope "I AM" gave me. It was held as tightly as the string. I sat back on the bird and began to slowly let go of the string. Once I felt secure and balanced on him I took the envelope and looked at it again. I studied the red wax seal on the back. I closed my eyes and held it to my chest. I opened my eyes and looked at it again. I saw the red wax seal break and fall off. I opened the flap of the envelop and pulled out a piece of paper. It had an out line of a green daisy in the right corner.  The writing was in red in the middle of the page and it said "You are Free". Tears began to stream down my face. I held the note to my chest and just wept. The eagle let out another long cry. Then he bag an to make his way back to "I AM". He landed and bowed with his wings stretched out. I slid down and landed on the ground. I held the paper back to my chest. Tears still flowing. "I AM's" eyes began to fill with tears. He opened his arms to me and I ran to him. He embraced me and hugged me so tight. He said to me while kissing my head "it is truth child...and no one can take it from you".  

Walk with me 6-14-15

I am standing on a rock far out from the shore. The waves crash all around me. I am wearing a long white dress without sleeves. My hair is long and the sides are pulled back. My hair blows behind me as the wind whips around me.  I am about 11 years old in this  encounter. As in most of my encounters I am barefoot.  I can feel the texture of the rock and how it is wet and cool underfoot. I see off in the distance storm clouds approaching.  The think black clouds begin to fill the sky. I begin to see lightning and hear rumbles of thunder in the distance. I look behind me and notice there is no way to get to the shore. It is too far back. The rock I am on may be large but it stands alone in the increasingly rough waters. The waves begin to crash against the rock bigger and harder as the storm rolls in.  I close my eye's and take a deep breath. I look around and realize I am stuck and there is nothing I can do. So I sit down on the rock. My dress becomes wet and dirty from sitting down. I try to wipe the dirt off but when the water touches it the dirt turns to mud and makes my efforts worse. I pull my knees up to my chest and tears roll down my face. I watch as the sky grows darker and darker till it swallows up the light that was around me. now I sit on this rock in the dark storm lighting strikes close by. The waves are beginning to wash up over the rock on me. I become soaked more and more my each one. Tears continue to roll down as I realize more and more how critical my situation is becoming. So I laid down on my right side on the rock expecting to parish in its wrath. Then it begins to sprinkle. I watched as the drops of rain begin to slowly fall. I turned my head to look up at the sky, when I did the rain fell hard and fast. I covered my head but not one drop fell on me. I slowly pulled my hands back and looked around. I could see the rain coming down, it was hard to see just feet in front of me. Then lightning shot through the sky and struck the water next to the rock, then I heard thunder so loud I had to cover my ears. I sat up and pulled my knees to my chest, I looked around and noticed the waves where higher then the rock but where no longer touching me. I saw the part of the rock where I was sitting begin to dry up. the rain was falling everywhere but where I was. I reached down with one hand and touched the rock around me it was now dry, and where I sat light begin to grow around me. I was so focused on what was happening in this small dry space I forgot about the raging storm around me. I looked down at my dress and I saw the wet mud. Tears began to fall again as I tried again to wipe it off. I closed my eye's and sighed in frustration. Then I opened my eye's and slowly began to stand. I looked out over the ragging waters  and storm, I thought "there is no hope...I am alone here." Then the rock  shook  and a small crack appeared in front of me. I bent down and touched it. It was maybe a foot long and an inch wide. I stood back up and looked at it for a moment then back out over the storm around me. I looked back down at the crack and I watched a small plant begin to grow. I saw the leaves grow quickly and roll out then I saw a flower bud. I saw a white glow surround it and it opened up into a beautiful daisy. The flower glowed a soft white like the ones at the new temple in the garden. I bent down and touched the petal. The light from the flower grew brighter and my finger began to glow. The light traveled up my arm and throughout my body. The mud on my dress dried up and fell to the ground. I took a step back in awe and looked my dress over.  When I looked back over at the daisy I saw Jesus kneeling touching the flower. He was looking at me and smiling. at this point I had completely forgotten the storm.  He picked the flower and stood up. He looked down at the flower and admired it in his hand a moment.  The he looked at me again smiled gently and asked "Why did you lay down  child?" Tears filled my eye's again and I said "I was afraid." he took a step closer to  me, reached out and touched my face and said "why where you so afraid?" I looked down at the ground and said nothing. The shame began to overtake me, it welled up inside  like the raging  ocean  waves. I looked past Jesus and I saw the storm, with all its darkness and hopelessness and I began to weep. I coved my face and cried. Jesus took one more step closer, he pulled me close and held me while I cried. After a moment I wrapped my arms around him so tight. I buried my face into his chest. He put his hand on the back of my head and kissed the top of my head. He didn't say anything he just held me for a while as I cried. Then I began to feel calm and the tears faded. I pulled back to look at his face, he looked down at me and smiled. He kissed my forehead and stepped back a bit.  He was still holding the glowing Daisy in his hand. He reached out with his other hand and touched my face and said "You are pure...you are innocent....you are clean." I looked down and he lifted my head to meet his eyes and he said "clean....you are clean." Tears began to stream down my face again. He took the glowing daisy and placed it behind my ear. Then he said "child...sweet child...you are never alone. I know it feels that way sometimes in the storm but I am always with you. I am the rock that keeps you safe in the raging waters, the protection from the winds and the rain. I am the one who speaks to the storm and calms all your fears." He then embraced my face with both hands and whispered with tears in his eyes "I am what makes you....clean. I am what you cannot be, I am what you cannot do. Child.....I AM that I AM in everything." When he said that I felt the warmth of the sun, I looked around and the storm was gone. The waters where calm and still. I didn't even notice the storm had passed. I looked back at the shore then at Jesus and asked "how do I get back to the shore?" He smiled and took my hand and said "why go back? Who needs the shore when you can walk on water?" He turned to the open sea and said "come child.....walk with me."

Questions June 1 2015

I am sitting on a bridge made of stone. I am wearing a white dress and I am barefoot. I am about 8yrs old in this encounter. I notice it is cool outside and I look up at the night sky. I see all the stars way above my head. I study them a moment as I sit there. Then I look down at the water and I reach down and touch my finger to the still water.  I watch the ring on the water go out from my finger. I watch as it gets larger and larger till I can no longer see its ripples. I pulled my hand back and just looked at the water. I laid down on my stomach and looked at the night sky on the top of the water. when the rings went away the water was like a mirror. It gave the illusion that the sky and water where one, never ending.  I then saw a face appear in the water next to mine. I sat back on my knees and looked up I saw Jesus sating there. He looked down at me and touched my face. Jesus asked "What is troubling you child?"  I looked down at the water and I said "me". he sat down on the edge of the bridge made of stone. I moved so that my legs hung over the edge like his. Jesus said "You sometimes expect more from you then I do.  Some of the things you are trying to accomplish are not for you child, they never where. Some are just unrealistic and lead to destruction. Learn to relax and enjoy where you are, let peace come to your troubled heart." I let out a sigh and I said "I just hurt inside and there is so much conflict with who I am and what I am." He nudged me, smiled and said "I know who you are." I looked down at the water and sighed. I looked up at him and said "Why does this all have to be so hard? My heart feels like it is being torn into a million pieces and there is nothing I can do to stop it." he wrapped his arm around me and said "Child....Look at the water what do you see?" I said I see the reflection of the stars on the water." He looked out over the water and said "do those stars hold themselves up?" I looked up and answered "No...no they don't" Jesus said "What makes you think you can hold yourself up? I know your heart is hurting, I can feel it, But give me the pieces let me put it back together. You are trying so hard to do it on your own. You have tried to deal with this in your own way....Child it only leads to destruction. Destruction causes YOU more pain." I said "and others." Jesus took my hand and said "I am talking about you...no one else. Your actions can hurt others but I am concerned right now with you." I looked at him and asked "so...now what?" He studied my face a moment then said "Just know I Love You." I looked down at the water and said "what do you want from me?" He pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me and said "Nothing...I just want to love you" I began to cry and he just held me. He began to whisper over me and then would kiss my head. II couldn't make out what he was saying though. I then  felt  the wind pick up. I saw a light  off in the distance on the water began to dane with the wind and move across the water towards us. when it got to us it swirled around us wrapping us in light. I felt peace and calm come over me. the light then became so bright I had to close my eyes then it  was all gone

Rose 5-23-15

I am in the garden behind the new temple. I am on the stone paved patio close to the building. I walk over to the stone bench and sit down. I notice I am wearing a white dress and I am barefoot. I look down and see smudges of dirt all over my dress. my feet are covered in dried mud. my hands and arms are dirty. I look around to see if anyone is there, when I realized no one was there I put my hands under me to try and hide them. I looked out at the garden in front of me, I was sad and tears began to stream down my cheek. I didn't know what to do. I then felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked up to see "I AM" he looked down at me and smiled. I tried to cover my feet by crossing them and covering them with my dress. Then I stuck my hands back under me. He walked over and sat next to me on the bench. I looked the other way and down at the ground. He asked me "Child, what is wrong." I couldn't look at him or even speak to him. He asked me " Can I see you hand?" I tucked them a little further under my legs and shook my head "no".  I then seen a rose appear in his hand. He looked the flower over as if he was in thought. he then got up and stood in front of me. he knelt down so his eye's could meet mine. I looked down at my dirty dress the tears still flowing. I could not hold them back at all. "I AM" put out his hand and he said " I am not judging you child. What you are trying to hide...I already know about." I slowly looked up at him and he smiled. "I AM" said "really....it's okay. It's all okay." I stopped crying and He reached out and wiped the tears off my cheek. He smiled gently at me and said "You know child, It's okay to be happy." he tucked my hair behind my ear and said "You feel so bad about things you could not control, and those things you could...I have forgiven. so why do you torment yourself so? You are not dirty....I know you feel that way, but you are not." He put the rose in his left hand and reached his right hand out to me and he said "I need you to trust that what I say to you is true." I looked down at my dress and all the dirt smudges on it. I pulled out my hands and looked at them. They where covered in dry mud. I pulled my feet out from under me and looked down at them, they where also covered in dry mud. I let out a big sigh and said then  "why do I still see it? Why can't I get rid of this feeling? Why can't I keep the dirt off?" he smiled and said "because you can't.....but I can." He took the rose and offered it to me. He said "It's a gift." I reached out and touched the petal of the flower with the tip of my finger and looked up at "I AM" he said "Seeing you like this breaks my heart. I want so much for you to see yourself as I see you."  I pulled my hand back and said "but after everything he did I...." "I AM" interrupted me and said "I know...you don't deserve it, right?  But  child  you do....you do deserve it. You deserve to be loved, cherished,  happy  and whole. Why? Because you are mine....and because I love you." He again  offered  me the rose I looked down at the dirt I was covered in then at him and I reached out and took the rose. When I took it I slowly began to glow a soft white light. all  the dirt fell to the ground and "I AM" smiled said to me "There you are." I was in awe  the caked on dirt was just all gone.  I looked at him with uncertainty and he took my  clean  glowing  hands and said "give it time...I am in no hurry." He leaned in and kissed my forehead and said "I love you as you are." He stood up and reached out his hand  to me. I took it and stood with him.  The sun was setting over the garden  and he said  shall we walk together? I nodded ""yes. we linked elbows and we walked the path out into the garden. 

Mirror Pieces 3-18-15

I was standing in a light blue painted room. I am maybe 10 in this encounter and I was wearing a white dress that went just past my knees. My hair was long and was done up in curls. The sides tied up in the back and decorated with baby's breath. To my right was a old brown door, and to my Left the same. In front of me appeared a mirror in an old victorian type frame. The mirror was about 3 feet long and wide. I looked into the mirror but my image was distorted. I tried to focus but the image became more and more wavy. I reached out my hand to touch the mirror and when I touched it the image of myself became clear and the whole mirror shattered. pieces of the mirror where now floating just around where this mirror frame was. I covered my mouth in shock. I felt bad, I didn't know whose mirror it was or how I could even begin to fix it. I tried to grab the small floating pieces but each time I tried to grab one they floated out of reach. I began to sob because I couldn't fix it, I couldn't even pick up the pieces to try. Just then I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned and saw the Spirit standing there. He had on a white hooded robe and his hair and eye brows where brilliant white and his eyes like a clear/white flame. The difference this time with him was he didn't have the hood on over his head. He always in the past had the hood on.  He looked at me with concern and asked "Child...what are you doing?" I said "I don't know. I am not even sure what I did. Let alone try to fix it." The tears where still streaming down my face. He said "shhh..child, peace to you." He then wiped away a tear from my cheek. He said "There are somethings child...you cannot fix. Trust me, Let me do the work. Heaven has it's ear turned towards you. Nothing has gone unheard or unseen." I looked at the mirror and fear began to rise in me. I was afraid That he was going to be angry with me for breaking the mirror. The Spirit said "Casie...." I turned back towards him and he said to me "That fear you feel....is a lie. I am not mad, I knew it was broken long before you ever touched it." He placed his hand on my chest and said "Let us call out to Him together." My chest and the Spirit began to glow a bright light. It filled the room till only light was left. the Spirit disappeared and walking towards me in the light was "I AM." He stopped a few feet in front of me and smile softly. He lifted his hands a little and the broken mirror appeared in front of him between his hands. He was not touching it at all. the frame floated there with all the tiny pieces and he looked at me and said "How did you think you could fix this...alone?" I covered my mouth with both hands and tears began to flow I said to him "I didn't meant o break it. My image was blurry and I touched the mirror and it just shattered. I am so so sorry."He looked down at the broken mirror then at me and said "You where focusing on the wrong image...the wrong person. You cannot hold The pieces together...you cannot hols yourself together. When you took your eyes off me everything fell apart." He spoke a over the mirror which sounded like breath and I could see the breath rollout of his mouth and wrap around thee broken pieces of the mirror. I heard the word but I don't know what it means. (it sounded like e-o-wish). Then "I AM" looked at me and said "now what do you see?" He took the mirror and when he did ALL the tiny pieces came back into the frame and it was made whole and new...like I had never touched it. I walked slowly up to the mirror and I saw the blurred image of myself and I closed my eye's. "I AM" said "Child....listen to my voice. Hear my words deep inside. Hear the words I Love, you're perfect, clean, and beautiful. Anything you hear outside that is just background noise. focus  on me. With my eye's still closed tears began to flow and I said to him "I can't" I then felt hands on my shoulders I opened my eyes and looked behind me. Jesus was standing  there with his hands on my shoulders. He looked into my eye's and said "No you can't....But I can." I felt his strength fill me and I looked at the mirror and the distorted blurred  image  of my self changed and I saw "I AM's" face in the mirror. Jesus then stepped in front of me and put his finger on the glass in the top left corner and  drew a line down to the bottom right. A red line appeared over the image and with hhis arm now around my shoulder he looked down at me and smiled. then he said "And with my blood it is sealed.....forever." he kissed my head and it was all gone. 

Other Side 3-26-15

I was standing on a sandy white beach looking out to the ocean. I was wearing a light yellow long dress. I was barefoot and had a crown made of baby's breath in my hair. I watched the waves come and go. The breeze was cool on my face. I closed my eye's and just listened to the sound of the waves. After moment i felt my spirit stir and I opened my eyes to see The Spirit standing on the beach in front of me, facing me.  He, as always, was wearing a white hooded robe with the hood on his head. his hair a brilliant white and his eyes a clear/whitish fire. He smiled at me and I watched as the waves came in and washed around his feet up to his ankles then back out. after a moment he slowly walked up to me and placed his hand on my shoulder. He looked into my eye's and smiled then said "This is bigger then you know child...." I looked at him funny and asked "then what?" He touched my face and disappeared. I looked around and saw he was gone. I saw the  sky begin to fill with dark storm clouds. The sea began to become upset the waves tossing, growing larger and larger. I saw lightning flash striking the water. The wind picked up and began to blow hard but I wasn't scared or worried. I stood there on the beach as the rain began, it came down hard....but not one drop touched me. I stood and watched the waters rage and the sky grow darker and darker. The storm was now at it's worst and I closed my eye's and whispered "I need you" I heard a voice like thunder begin to speak, the voice shook everything. The words brought a peace to my whole being. The thunderous voice said "Ishma....El Shama" (means God will hear, God has heard). The storm stopped and the clouds parted and a bright white light shown down on me. the light was bright and warm. I closed my eyes and soaked in the light.  I opened my Eye's to see "I AM" standing out in front of me. He was wearing a white robe withe a deep purple sash. He was glowing a a soft white. He moved towards me and when he got to me he stopped toe to toe. he looked into my eye's. his eyes where like a bright glowing clear glass. There was soo much love in them. They pierced my very core and I felt light and free. he touched his forehead to mine and closed his eye's and said "I have parted the sea once...I will do it a million times more to see you get to the other side. Washing away..behind you all that chases you. There will always be a path through the rough waters, peace to your storm." he opened his eye's, his forehead still to mine and said "Keep your eye's on me child and know....nothing can touch you, nothing can overtake you." he embraced my face and closed his eye's he kissed my forehead gently then disappeared. I looked out to the sea that was still raging and I walked towards it. I held up  my hands and closed my eye's in worship. the ground shook and i opened my eye's the waters had parted and I stepped  out between these two walls of raging water and out in front of me on the other side I saw Jesus. I turned back and looked behind  me I saw words following me. I saw the words "Fear, Pain, Hopelessness, Dirty and  unworthy. I heard Jesus call my name and I looked back towards him and continued  to walk  forward.  I was about half way across at this point when the ground shook  so hard  I fell to my knees. I looked back just as the waves crashed down on thee words behind me washing them away. I stood back up and kept moving forward. I got to the other side  and  as I stepped up onto the beach I felt the water rush around my feet, bit this time I didn't look back I kept my eye's on Jesus who was I was now face to face with. He stood there and he smiled  at  me, there was so much love in his face. I stepped forward and he reached out to me and pulled me close hugging me tightly. Jesus was laughed and  kissed  my head over and over. He then stopped looked down  at me and said with excitement "come!...come child! walk  with me!" he put  his arm around my shoulder and i saw the Spirit appear next to him was a bright ball  of light. Jesus still had his arm around my shoulder and we walked into the light. 

No Performance 3-17-15

I was laying on the bed in the dark thinking about many things. I closed my eye's and I felt something move around me in a spinning motion. I could feel the light coming off of it. I opened my eyes to see a tunnel of light spinning around me as I laid there. It was maybe two feet from my face and it covered me head to to. I watched this light spin for a moment. Then I slowly reached up with my hand to touch it.  When my fingers touched the light it stopped spinning and became solid. I began to panic a bit not knowing what was going on. I looked above me and saw it covered my head then I sat up just enough to see it covered my feet. There was no way out. Then I heard a voice on the other side talking to me but I could not understand what he was saying because it was muffled. At first I started to cry, I was scared and had no Idea how to get out.  Then I felt my spirit stir, I stopped crying and reached up and touched the thing that had wrapped around me. When I touched it with my hand I saw red lines that looked like veins spread throughout this thing. my hand then went through it and I reached up with the other and began to pull it away. It broke through and I began to kick it and tare pieces off till I was able to sit up. When I sat up I had to put my arm up to shield my eye's from the bright light to my right. I saw Jesus standing there his face was like the son. I could make out the bottom part of his robe and I could see the out line of his hands as he eld them out to to his sides like he was getting ready for a hug. I noticed I was under a shade from a tree and as I crawled out of this thing I began to shake. I was wet and cold in the shade. The dress I was wearing looked was wet and looked like a pale purple. I wrapped my arms around myself shivering and stood there looking at him a little ways out. I was still in the shade of this massive tree the light coming fro Jesus just beyond the shade. I looked to my left and my right then slowly made my way forward. I closed my eye's as I walked forward because the light from his face was so bright. When I came to the edge of the shade and stepped into the light I slowly began to feel warm. I stepped out a little further with my eye's still closed and stopped. I felt completely warm and my dress had dried. the light died down and I opened my eye's to see Jesus smiling. I looked down at my my dress and it was a beautiful dark purple. I took the sides of my dress and held it out admiring it. I looked up and Jesus said to me "Casie, you doubt the fact you are a new creation time and time again. Sweet child, you still think there is so much to do...but the work is done. You are still trying, trying to earn my love, trying  to make up for things that I took care of.  I know things have been up and down. I know you don't feel New, changed, even some days loved. Don't be so frustrated child....It's ok to not be ready to be everything you want to be right now." he stepped closer to me looked down at me and smiled gently. Tears where streaming down my face. he reached out and touched my face and said "sweet sweet child....Just because a caterpillar turns into a butterfly doesn't mean it's ready to fly. Even new butterflies need to soak in the sun first before they take flight." I began to sob  as i felt a weight lift off me. He wrapped his arms around me and I buried my face into his chest and he said "you are beautiful no matter where you are at. You don't have to preform for me"  he kissed my head and I all went away.

Hand Print 3-2-15

Hand Print 3-2-15

I was eight years old in this encounter, and standing in the doorway that leads to the garden. My white dress had long sleeves that flared out around my hands, and covered them. The dress was constructed of heavy winter-weight fabric, but like always, I was barefoot. On my head was a crown of baby's breath and ivy, and around my neck was a golden locket with the word Beloved engraved on it. 

I put my right hand on the door frame and looked out over the garden where snow covered everything. It was so beautiful, the sun was beginning to set and the colors where bold and intense. I looked down at the snow and touched my toe to the snow and felt how cold it was. Pulling my foot back, I knelt down and placed my right hand in the snow, and pressed down enough to make an impression. I giggled when I pulled my hand back and saw that it was almost a perfect impression in the snow. I sat there a moment looked at my hand-print, then I looked around, I felt so small compared to everything around me.  

Then I heard someone coming up behind me. I turned to see who it was, and my heart was moved when I saw it was Jesus. I began to stand up, but I felt him place his hand on my shoulder and he knelt down next to me. He took his right hand and placed it over my hand-print in the snow.  His hand was much larger than mine. I could see the hole in his hand as he pressed it into the snow, and when he pulled it back, there were both our prints together. I wondered for a moment why my hand print was still there since he placed his over the top of mine. But then my attention was pulled to something else, I noticed the place where the hole in his hand was, in the middle of my hand print. 

He stood up, and so did I. I looked at the two prints in the snow and watched them slowly melt into one. Then the snow began to melt around the hand print and out away from it into the garden.  I stood there and watched It melt completely away from the entire garden. The tree's and grass still lush and green underneath the melted snow. I watched the sun began to disappear and the garden slowly become dark. 

Jesus took my hand and said, "Walk with me." So we walked out onto the patio. As we made our way to the waist high wall at the end of the patio I looked up and could see the stars, both bright and dim. Jesus stopped at the end of the stone patio, next to the stone wall and looked up, pointing to the sky he asked "Do you see the stars? I know every one of them." 

I looked around at the sky and asked "How can you know each one? There are so many of them." 

He looked down at me and smiled, "I created them. I created them with intention, with purpose, with life. I know every inch of each one; there is not a detail I have missed." He looked back up at the sky smiling. I stood there a moment trying to wrap my head around it and replied "That's a lot to try to remember!" 

Jesus knelt down and studied my face a moment, then said "Child. . .when you intentionally love someone, like I love you, it is hard to forget the very things that make you, you." He tucked my hair behind my ear and said "How could I ever forget that first breath you drew? The first song you sang? That giggle that made me smile?" His eyes filled with tears and he said "How could I ever forget the first time you reached back to me? or called my name? When you really love someone.(a tear fell down his face). . . You can't forget." 

In that moment my heart became so full of love, I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him tight. Jesus wrapped his arms around me he picked me up and held me tight. we both cried, but not out of sadness but love and joy. He kissed my head and cheek then whispered over and over "I love you so. . .so much." 

When I first met Jesus 1987

God Encounter

1987

"When I first Met Jesus"

I was seven years old and I was laying in my bed. It was the middle of the night, and my dad had just left my room. I laid there just weeping in pain, thinking how disgusting I was. I remember I whispered in the darkness "I just want to disappear." Shortly after, I fell asleep. 

I had a dream that night, that I was walking through a field of tall dead grass. As I walked, black storm clouds began to cover the sky above me. The wind picked up and it was so strong I thought it would knock me down. The sound of the wind was loud as it blew around me. I crossed my arms and continued to walk the field while fighting the wind.  Lightning flashed, and thunder began to rumble, and it began to pour. But I kept walking forward. 

Then, men in black hooded robes gathered in a circle around me. I turned around and saw no way out. They began to chant something all together. Between them, the wind, and the thunder, the noise was so loud! I walked around the circle and then to the center. I began to scream over and over for help, but the noise was so loud, I couldn't even hear my own screams.  Suddenly, a bright white light shone from the sky and the storm stopped. The men that had surrounded me hit the ground face down and stopped chanting, completely silent. 

In awe of what had just happened, I walked a little way around the circle when I heard my name from behind. I turned around, and there stood a man. I didn't know his name, and his face shone like the bright white light I saw in the sky. I didn't know the man's name, but everything inside me was drawn to him. He held out his hand, and I saw the hole in it. He said to me "Come follow me." I hesitated, but I reached out and took his hand, and when I did I woke up.

Thorns 2-27-15

KC Cline

God Encounter 

2-27-15

"Thorns"

I was asleep when the presence of God fell on me, and my spirit stirred with such intensity I began to shake. Opening my eyes, I found my room was lit by a soft yellow glow. I sat up and saw the three angels standing guard. The one who stood just in front of the other two had a small white flame in the palm of his left hand. The two angels behind and on either side of him had their right hands on their swords as if they were ready to fight. The angel in front with the flame in his hand looked at me and smiled, and I saw that his eyes burned with the same flame that was in his hand. 

I got up out of the bed and walked toward them, but when I did, I found my surroundings had changed. (In this encounter I was about eight years old, bare-footed, and wearing a long, white summer-type dress – like a sleeveless sun dress – so my shoulders were exposed.) 

I was now standing in a small dirt clearing – about four to five feet in diameter - surrounded by a massive patch of thorn bushes.  I walked around this small circle trying to find a way out of these thorns. There was no path in or out. I then thought maybe I could go through them, so I touched one of the thorns with my finger to see just how sharp they were. When I touched the thorn it cut through the tip of my finger like butter. My finger began to bleed and a drop of blood fell to the ground. When it hit the dirt it turned black and the thorn bushes grew around me. I was now in a small circle about 3 feet wide all around. I sat on the dirt and brought my knees to my chest. Every time I moved, the thorns would snag on my dress or cut my arms or face. With my knees to my chest I began to cry. 

Then I looked up and saw Jesus standing in the thorns in front of me. He smiled slightly and said "Sweet child, how did you get here?" 

I looked up at him and said "I don't know." I looked around at the thorns and moved just a little. The thorns pressed into me. They were now touching my skin, and any movement resulted in cuts from the bushes. I began to panic and cry. I turned my head and my hair got caught in the thorns. I looked back, trying to untangle my hair, but the more I moved the worse it got. 

Then I heard Jesus say "Casie. . ." I turned as best as I could to look at him, because my hair was tangled in the thorns, and he asked "Where are you at?" I just broke down and cried. He reached out his hand to me and a drop of his blood fell from his hand to the ground. When it hit the ground the thorn bush shriveled up and pulled back a bit. He said to me "Take my hand, child. . . Don't look at the thorns." So I reached up and took his hand. When I did, I began to glow a soft white. The thorns that were tangled in my hair released, and the thorn bush that surrounded me shriveled up and pulled back.

Jesus helped me to my feet, and I looked up into his eyes. . .eyes I cannot describe. It was like eternity. I have never seen eyes like his. They touched something so deep inside. It brought so much life and light to my body. He smiled and said "I am still here; I never left. Keep looking at me. Keep listening and learning. I am the answer to all of this." He took my hand and said "Stay close and walk with me."

We, together, turned, and the endless patch of thorns that went on for miles with no path was before us. He reached out his hand and a drop of his blood fell to the ground. When it hit the ground, the thorn bushes shriveled up and cleared a wide path before us. We walked down the path and before us I saw the mighty city where heaven was. I saw the castle that was in the middle of the city. I asked Jesus "Are we going there?" 

He looked down at me and smiled. Then he said "Child, we are going there."

After a long walk we arrived at the gate where the two massive guardian angels stand. These angels are 20-30 feet tall and have two sets of wings. They are made of white light and their eyes are like blue glass. When you look at them, you can feel, down in your soul, Love and the child-like innocence they carry. When we got close to the gate, the two angels bowed down and covered themselves completely with their wings. You could see nothing of them but their wings. 

Jesus and I walked through the gate into the city, passing houses, buildings of all sorts, and children playing with animals and angels. We came to the bridge painted in red in the center of the city, and having crossed over it, we climbed the steps to the castle. We stepped inside the castle and there I saw the two staircases, one to my right, and the other to my left. The one on the left leads down a never-ending hallway of doors with names and carved pictures on them. When you look up. . .the ceiling is so high you cannot see it. . . it's like there is no ceiling. We walked through the sparkling gold circle on the floor that had the words written on it that I couldn't read, before. Now the words say "Forgiven." 

We walked into the room before us, full of light. I was still holding Jesus' hand as we walked through, and I covered my eyes with my right arm. When the light faded I brought down my arm and looked around the room. I saw the long table full of food. I saw people laughing and talking. The table was very, very long. I heard music and I saw people dancing, laughing and singing. 

Jesus said "Come with me, child." He put his arm around my shoulder and we walked forward, together. I could see that the seats around the table were completely full, and as one person would get up and go dance, another would sit in his place. I saw those around him pass down food of all kinds, then bread and wine. Those around him would eat the bread and drink the wine with him, then carry on in laughter and eating.

After a little walk around, Jesus and I made it to the front of the table where I AM was seated. Tears of joy flowed down my face and I ran up to him. He turned and picked me up. I AM was laughing and kissing me. He then set me down, and looking up at Jesus he said "You found her?" Then he winked at him. I AM said "Child, sit here in my spot; spend time with my son. . . it is important you do so." He pulled out the chair and motioned for me to sit. I looked at him nervously, then at the chair. He smiled and said "It's alright! . . .Sit." I looked to Jesus and he motioned for me to sit in I AM's spot at the head of the table. So I walked over and very nervously sat down. 

I watched as "I AM" made his way down the table. He was laughing and interacting with each person before squeezing in to sit between a few of them. They passed him food, including the bread and wine, and they all ate together. 

Jesus sat in my spot at the table, and began to pour wine into my cup. He then reached to the middle of the table and grabbed some bread. He broke it and handed me a piece. When he did, the room became silent and I looked out over the table and everyone was gone. The big long table we were at was now a small table. It was just the two of us. Jesus said "I did this for all of them. . . and I did this for. . . YOU." He took my hand, turned it over, and placed a piece of bread in my palm, and said "I did it for even this. . ." I looked down at the bread, and I knew what he was talking about. He then took his bread and put it in his mouth. I did the same. He took the cup and said "Nothing in this world or in your world can take this from you. It can't alter it, change it, or deny you of it. This is eternal, unrelenting, all-consuming.  It covers. . .everything. Child, take it and be in good health. Embrace what my blood has to offer; know it is my very love for you." He reached out and touched my face and said "It is an unrelenting love." He then took a drink of the wine and I did the same.  He set the cup down and reached out and took both my hands and said "I am Love. . . I am the love you are looking for.  Let me love you." 

I closed my eyes and felt my spirit stir. I opened them and Jesus began to glow such a bright white light I couldn't look at him. I felt the light wrap around me, and through me. A feeling I can't put to words. It was so over-powering it took my breath away. 

Then the light died down and I was once again sitting on my bed. I took a deep breath and looked to the angels in my room. The one in the front smiled and said "You are greatly. . . greatly loved, Child of Light.” And they disappeared.

Peace 2-21-15. RLE

• God Encounter
  2-21-15
  RLE
  
  "Peace"
  
  I was sleeping, when a bright yellow glow filled the room. I opened my eyes, and at the end of my bed stood a large angel. His eyes, when I looked at them, were full of life, innocence, and light.
  
  He said "Be still, Child of Light. . . He is with you."
  
  I sat up in my bed and asked "Why are you here?"
  
  He smiled and said "To protect you."
  
  I thought for a moment and was curious to know from what?
  
  The angel then began to speak in a language I didn't know. He then held out his left hand, and a small yellow flame appeared in it. As he spoke again, two more angels appeared. There was one on each side, and standing slightly behind him. The angels behind him had their right hands on their swords, as if they were ready to draw them at a moment's notice.
  
  I looked at the angel with the flame in his hand and asked "What are you protecting me from?"
  
  He looked around the dark room that was softly lit by their yellow glow, and he said "There are many things that hide in darkness, Child of Light. Part of why we are here is to see that you get rest."
  
  I was even more curious now, and asked "Rest?"
  
  The flame in his hand began to change from a soft yellow glow to a bright white flame. He covered his heart and bowed his head and closed his eyes. . . like he was listening. He looked up at me and his eyes changed to a sort of blue glass type of thing – I'm not even sure how to describe it. It was as if you could see forever in his eyes.
  
  I looked around the softly lit room and I said, "The Spirit is here."
  
  The angel smiled and said, "Child of Light, you are greatly loved."
  
  The three Angels stepped back and I saw the Spirit appear. He was in a white hooded robe with the hood over his head. His hair was brilliant white and his eyes like a clear white flame.
  
  He came over and sat on the edge of the bed with me, then asked me with a smile "Where are you at, child?"
  
  I looked at the angels, then back at him, and I replied "In Him."
  
  He smiled really big and embraced my face with both hands. Then He said "You. . . you have made peace with yourself. There is peace within your soul. Your soul no longer cries out in pain; now it sings songs of praise. How beautiful it is!"
  
  I looked up at the angels who had covered their hearts with their right hands, and had their heads bowed and their eyes closed.
  He touched my face and looked at me with such love. He said "Sleep and rest in His peace. This storm is passing, and the warmth of the sun will soon grace your face."
  
  He put his hand on my chest and it began to glow a bright white, and he said "You have stepped into the Son's forgiveness. And you have seen just how pure and innocent you are. There is no dirt on you or in you. You have been washed clean in His blood. . . It's always been there, but now you know – you feel it – and understand it deep, deep within you. Child, rest in this. . . be yourself. . .be free."
  
  The Spirit stood up and said "I am always here."
  
  Then I saw him slowly change into "I AM," then into Jesus. Jesus now stood before me. He came and sat on the edge of the bed with me. Jesus reached out and touched my face. He just sat there quietly for a moment then kissed my head. He looked into my eyes and said "you look like. . .me!"
  
  I reached up to his hand and pulled it closer to my face. I closed my eyes, and tears began to stream down my face. This time it was not because I was sad or in despair. It wasn't because I felt unworthy, dirty, or full of shame. . . it was out of relief. It was out of the overwhelming peace and love that filled every ounce of who I was in that moment.
  
  He wrapped his arm around me, pulled me close, and said "You are forgiven. . .and that will never change."
  
  He held me a few moments then it all faded away.

Red Letters 2-17-2015

Red Letters 2-17-2015 

God Encounter 

2-17-2015

Red Letters Dream

I was in the garden behind the new temple, walking down the paved path that led to the entrance. I was barefooted, and wearing a long white sleeveless gown. There was a crown of baby's breath and daisies on my head. Up ahead, on my right, I saw the apple tree, still glowing with a soft white light. I walked off the path to the tree and reached out and touched it. When I did, the soft glow became a bright blinding light. I smiled and closed my eyes, and I could feel the warmth and love that came from the light. 

After a moment, I no longer felt the tree. I opened my eyes to find myself standing in light. I saw the Spirit appear in front of me and he smiled. He turned and walked away from me, so I followed him. I stepped out of the light into the front room of the castle in heaven. The Spirit had disappeared as we walked through. 

I walked to the middle of the room, and stood in the center of the sparkling yellow circle on the floor. There was writing on the circle that I could not read, and the letters lit up in bright yellow then changed to red and faded. The room was dark and the only light that lit this space was coming from the room of light, out of which I had just come. I could just make out the bottom half of the two staircases that lead up to the second floor, where all the doors with names are. 

Then I then saw a figure walking toward me – a man with white hair and smoke-like hands. I knew who it was. . . the accuser sometimes appears to me in this form. He stood about 20 feet in front of me, crossed his arms, and said "Look at you. . . you filthy piece of crap! You have no right to be here! You are not worthy to stand before. . . HIM!" 

I felt my spirit stir with such intensity that I shook. I closed my eyes and then looked back at him and said "You can't accuse me anymore. I am covered. I am clean. I am forgiven!" 

The man let out a screech that sounded like a thousand screams. He then came at me. I closed my eyes, and I began to glow a bright white. I opened my eyes just as he got within feet of me, but this time, he could not touch me. He stood in front of me and began to yell at me in a language I couldn't understand, then he let out the screech that seemed like a thousand screams again. I wasn't afraid this time. No angels appeared to defend me like in times past, but I stood there in confidence and said "You have no power here; no authority here. Be gone!”

The man screeched again and burst into the massive white glowing angel with hands that looked and moved like black smoke. The letters on the floor began to glow a bright red and the angel bowed down but seemed to be forced to do so. He stretched out his wings and disappeared. 

I was still glowing and I stepped back to look at the writing (that I couldn't read) on the floor. Then, before my eyes, they began to change, and I saw that it said in red glowing letters "Forgiven." I reached down and touched them, then I looked up to see "I AM" sitting on the third step of the staircase on my right. He had a big smile on his face and a rose in his hand. He stood up and walked down the few steps. He walked over and stood before me. He smiled and smelled the rose. He said to me "Beloved. . . Be Loved." He handed me the the rose and said "Walk with me." I took his hand and we together walked into the room of light.

Spotless Child 2-16-15

God Encounter

2-16-15

Dream I had last night

I was sitting in a dark candle lit room. I was sitting on the edge on my bed watching the flame of the candle dance. I watched as the light bounced off the mirror reflecting its every move. I felt my spirit stir I closed my eye's and too a deep breath, I could feel his presence so strong in the room. I opened my eye's and before me stood Jesus. He knelt down in front of me and said "I really want to help you....will you let me help you?" A tear ran down my cheek and I nodded yes. he took my hands and said close your eye's. I closed my eye's and when I did I could see the place of darkness deep down. I had felt for so long that this thing had been seared onto my spirit. I had come to the conclusion long ago that nothing could remove it or the pain it brought. It was also covered by both my hands. I saw me covering it, guarding it with everything I had. I was trying to hide it...and the shame that came with it. With my eye's still closed I heard Jesus say to me "child, I see it...." I saw in my minds eye him reach in and touch my hands gently. He put his hands over mine and gently squeezed them as to say it was okay. He the gently and slowly pulled my hands away from this darkness, this pain. I saw that it wasn't  touching my Spirit at all it hovered just above it. Jesus took his hands and placed it over this darkness and it began to glow a bright white. Peace swept over me like a wave and I could FEEL this thing separate from who I am. I began to sob, not out of sadness but relief. I took my hands and covered my face, all that shame, pain  was gone. I looked up at Jesus who was smiling he wrapped his arms around me and I just let myself collapse into them. I cried for a few moments then sat back. Jesus looked at my eyes...There is no painting or picture in this world that can ever portray the LOVE I see in his eye's. I don't think anyone could capture such an expression because it can only be felt. Jesus tucked my hair behind my ear and said "You are not dirty....you never were" He put out his hand and covered it with the other, I saw a bright whit light glow between his hands and when the light faded he uncovered his hand. in the palm of his hand was a Daisy...he took my hand and placed the daisy in it. He put his hand to my heart and I began to glow a soft white and he said "Peace...Peace my spotless child."

Just Jesus 2-8-15

I am walking through a field of long grass. It is night and the stars are shining bright over head. I run my hand over the tall blades of grass as I walk this field. I see trees far off in the distance. I was wearing a red dress and I was barefoot. I stopped in the middle of the field and one of the stars begin to shine brighter and brighter. I covered my eye's with my fore arm as the light filled the field I was in and it became brighter then day. I then felt a rushing wind blow around me like a violent storm. I didn't fall to the ground though the strength of the wind made it hard to stand. The white light wrapped around me and my dress became white, a brilliant white, whiter then I have ever seen. I began to glow white. I still had my eyes covered by my forearm. then I heard a voice and it all stopped. I was now standing in a a room wrapped completely of this white light, Before me stood Jesus. I stood there a moment in awe, the radiance of his presence was overwhelming and beautiful. The fear, darkness and sadness that has gripped my life for so long seemed like a distant memory. In this light was Love, holiness, peace..... Jesus smiled at me gently and in his eyes where so much life. The peace in them calmed everything in my soul.  All the questions and fears were not important in that moment. I reached out to touch him, he stepped forward and I touched his face with my hand. It was almost like shock...it was too real to be true. He closed his eyes a moment then I pulled my hand back. He stepped forward till he was inches from me. he put his forehead to mine and looked into my eye's. Jesus smiled at me and said "I see you" I looked down and he said again "I see you, I see you child" with our foreheads touching I looked back up at him....He smiled and it all faded.

Where are you? 1-30-15

I was standing before the wall where the old temple doors used to be. I saw the picture that was before me. I reached out and touched the wall. Everything inside of me wanted to go back to that place where I first met "I AM". It was a place I had come to feel safe and loved  in. I closed my eyes and I heard his voice from behind. He asked "child, where are you?" For a moment I was frustrated he has asked this many times and I knew he knew where I was and what was going on....but then it hit me. I turned around and looked at him with shock. "I AM" was wearing a white shirt and blue jeans. He had the bottom of his pants cuffed up just once and was barefoot.  He smiled at me and said "you got it." I said to "I AM" "this whole time I thought you where referring to how I was doing. It made me frustrated because you know where I am at...but...but that's not what you wanted to know, was it?" He put his hands in his pockets and smiled. He walked closer to me then reached out his hand and said "No it wasn't. I brought you through the old temple because I knew where you were at. You where not ready to understand the love I have for you. You no longer need that place because it's time to recognize where you really are. Child I have gently walked you to where we are because...I love you. So again I ask you...where are you?" I stopped for a moment. I turned and touched the wall again and I stepped back. I looked at the floor then turned to "I AM" "I'm...I'm in Christ" he got a huge smile on his face and said "yes...yes you are. You no longer need the temple you are the temple. What you where searching for is inside you. You no longer have to long for it or have something between us....child you are enveloped with -who I am-." I said "You know I have heard this so many times...why did it take me so long to get what you where asking?" He embraced my face with both hands, looked me in the eyes and said "I knew you would get it, I wasn't worried" he embraced me and held me tight for a few moments. He then kissed my head and said "remember how much I love you"

Reluctant 1-26-15

I was sitting on the floor with my back leaned up against the wall. It was where the doorway used to be that lead into the old temple. I was wearing a red robe and I was crying. I just wanted to be in that place I had grown to love and felt safe. I saw "I AM" slowly walking up to me. He looked down at me with concern. H asked me "where are you child?" I rolled my eyes and looked off to the right. I was a bit frustrated by this question because I knew he already knew. "I AM" sat down next to me and I pulled my knees in. He looked at me and said "I know somethings are harder then others, I know what you want....but I also know what you need. I know this isn't easy for you, but despite what you think your not walking this alone." I looked at him then down at the floor. he put his arm around me and said "Casie.." I looked at him funny, he rarely uses that name. I asked "Casie? why are you using that name?" he smiled and said "does it not speak to something deep down when I call you by your name?" I thought for a moment and realized it had. I wasn't sure why, but it drew all my attention when he called me by that name. He smiled and said "I have called you Adele for a long time, but no I want to call out to something you have hidden deep inside of you. I want to call out to that child that is hiding inside. You have been hiding a long long time." I pulled my knees a bit closer and tighter and asked "so what are you going to take from me?" He looked at me funny and said "take?" I was frustrated and said "Yeah...take" He shook his head and said "I won't just take things from you." I rolled my eye's and laid my head down on my knees facing the opposite direction of him. "I AM" stood up and I saw him hug Jesus. He embraced Jesus' face and said to him "I love you so much" then "I AM" walked away. Jesus sat down where "I AM" had been. I scooted over a bit and asked "why did he leave?" Jesus smiled and said "He didn't." I didn't say anything him I just looked at the floor. Jesus moved over, he sat so close we where touching. he wrapped his arm around me and my red robe turned white and began to glow. I sat back against the wall and looked down at my robe in surprise. I looked at him and he said "I love you so much Casie....there is nothing you can do to change that. I know where you are at and what you are struggling with right now. I know you have a lot of questions and I know you are afraid....but ask. There is grace and freedom in asking." I looked away and said "I dunno..." he hugged me, kissed my head and said "let me be your strength child..." he stood up and reached out his hand, I hesitated and looked around for "I AM". Then I looked up at Jesus and i took his hand, he helped me up put his arm around me and we walked into a bright light in front of us. 

The Pit 1-9-15

I was sitting on the ledge of a cliff overlooking a bighole in the ground larger than a quarry. As I sat there it became dark all around me. I was covered in darkness sitting on this ledge. Everything around me was darkness. But behind me I saw a bright light it shown over the top of me. I looked behind me and I saw Jesus standing there. I turn back and looked overthis massive hole in the ground. He came up behind me and asked me, child where are you? I looked downlook down into the hole and felt crushed and lost on the back of me where wings. They had been destroyed to the point of being fragile. Like the outlineof the bones in the wings were all that were left. My white dress was covered in tar in tears fell from my face. Jesus touch the top of my head and said," I know where you're at, I know where you're struggling. But there is light in the darkness and I have not left you. Though everything around you seems impossible and seems out of reach...focus on me."  I scooted closer to the ledge and looked down, there seemed to be no end, no bottom to this pit. Jesus reached his arms around me and pulled me back away from the ledge. He pulled me back onto the grass. I stood and turned to him my wings had crumbled and fallen to the ground. My face stained with tears and my arms, dress and hands covered in black tar. I began to yell and scream at him all my frustrations and hurt. He just stood there and listened. I fell to the ground out of exhaustion and just sobbed. He knelt down and placed his hand on my shoulder and said "I love you" I stopped and said "after all that?? You aren't going to scream back or punish me??" He looked deep into my eyes and said "I.. Love ...you" an angel appeared behind him. It was the completely white angel I saw once before. With eyes like light blue glass. He approached with his wings covering his front. Jesus turned and reached up to the angel and the angel pullback his wings. In angels hands was a small mirror and he handed it to Jesus. Jesus took the mirror and showed it to me. He said "do you remember this? Do you remember what I see? All this around youis what you see, not what I see." He lifted the mirror to show me I looked into the mirror and I saw the face of "I AM" I began to cry and I reached out to touch the mirror. I just swept and wept. Jesus put the mirror down and he reached out to me he said "I just want you to know how much I love you, how clean you are, how free you are." I reached out and I wrap my arms around his neck and I begin to cry. He wrapped his arms around me and stood. he held me in his arms as I wept. He said "you will not do this alone I will always be with you. I am placed people around you who will love you, encourage you and bring you hope. Because child right now you just need to know there's hope." When he was done speaking my dress turned white as snow and began to glow. All the tar that covered my hands my dress and my face was gone. Jesus kiss my head and turned and walked me away from the pit