Walk with me 6-14-15

I am standing on a rock far out from the shore. The waves crash all around me. I am wearing a long white dress without sleeves. My hair is long and the sides are pulled back. My hair blows behind me as the wind whips around me.  I am about 11 years old in this  encounter. As in most of my encounters I am barefoot.  I can feel the texture of the rock and how it is wet and cool underfoot. I see off in the distance storm clouds approaching.  The think black clouds begin to fill the sky. I begin to see lightning and hear rumbles of thunder in the distance. I look behind me and notice there is no way to get to the shore. It is too far back. The rock I am on may be large but it stands alone in the increasingly rough waters. The waves begin to crash against the rock bigger and harder as the storm rolls in.  I close my eye's and take a deep breath. I look around and realize I am stuck and there is nothing I can do. So I sit down on the rock. My dress becomes wet and dirty from sitting down. I try to wipe the dirt off but when the water touches it the dirt turns to mud and makes my efforts worse. I pull my knees up to my chest and tears roll down my face. I watch as the sky grows darker and darker till it swallows up the light that was around me. now I sit on this rock in the dark storm lighting strikes close by. The waves are beginning to wash up over the rock on me. I become soaked more and more my each one. Tears continue to roll down as I realize more and more how critical my situation is becoming. So I laid down on my right side on the rock expecting to parish in its wrath. Then it begins to sprinkle. I watched as the drops of rain begin to slowly fall. I turned my head to look up at the sky, when I did the rain fell hard and fast. I covered my head but not one drop fell on me. I slowly pulled my hands back and looked around. I could see the rain coming down, it was hard to see just feet in front of me. Then lightning shot through the sky and struck the water next to the rock, then I heard thunder so loud I had to cover my ears. I sat up and pulled my knees to my chest, I looked around and noticed the waves where higher then the rock but where no longer touching me. I saw the part of the rock where I was sitting begin to dry up. the rain was falling everywhere but where I was. I reached down with one hand and touched the rock around me it was now dry, and where I sat light begin to grow around me. I was so focused on what was happening in this small dry space I forgot about the raging storm around me. I looked down at my dress and I saw the wet mud. Tears began to fall again as I tried again to wipe it off. I closed my eye's and sighed in frustration. Then I opened my eye's and slowly began to stand. I looked out over the ragging waters  and storm, I thought "there is no hope...I am alone here." Then the rock  shook  and a small crack appeared in front of me. I bent down and touched it. It was maybe a foot long and an inch wide. I stood back up and looked at it for a moment then back out over the storm around me. I looked back down at the crack and I watched a small plant begin to grow. I saw the leaves grow quickly and roll out then I saw a flower bud. I saw a white glow surround it and it opened up into a beautiful daisy. The flower glowed a soft white like the ones at the new temple in the garden. I bent down and touched the petal. The light from the flower grew brighter and my finger began to glow. The light traveled up my arm and throughout my body. The mud on my dress dried up and fell to the ground. I took a step back in awe and looked my dress over.  When I looked back over at the daisy I saw Jesus kneeling touching the flower. He was looking at me and smiling. at this point I had completely forgotten the storm.  He picked the flower and stood up. He looked down at the flower and admired it in his hand a moment.  The he looked at me again smiled gently and asked "Why did you lay down  child?" Tears filled my eye's again and I said "I was afraid." he took a step closer to  me, reached out and touched my face and said "why where you so afraid?" I looked down at the ground and said nothing. The shame began to overtake me, it welled up inside  like the raging  ocean  waves. I looked past Jesus and I saw the storm, with all its darkness and hopelessness and I began to weep. I coved my face and cried. Jesus took one more step closer, he pulled me close and held me while I cried. After a moment I wrapped my arms around him so tight. I buried my face into his chest. He put his hand on the back of my head and kissed the top of my head. He didn't say anything he just held me for a while as I cried. Then I began to feel calm and the tears faded. I pulled back to look at his face, he looked down at me and smiled. He kissed my forehead and stepped back a bit.  He was still holding the glowing Daisy in his hand. He reached out with his other hand and touched my face and said "You are pure...you are innocent....you are clean." I looked down and he lifted my head to meet his eyes and he said "clean....you are clean." Tears began to stream down my face again. He took the glowing daisy and placed it behind my ear. Then he said "child...sweet child...you are never alone. I know it feels that way sometimes in the storm but I am always with you. I am the rock that keeps you safe in the raging waters, the protection from the winds and the rain. I am the one who speaks to the storm and calms all your fears." He then embraced my face with both hands and whispered with tears in his eyes "I am what makes you....clean. I am what you cannot be, I am what you cannot do. Child.....I AM that I AM in everything." When he said that I felt the warmth of the sun, I looked around and the storm was gone. The waters where calm and still. I didn't even notice the storm had passed. I looked back at the shore then at Jesus and asked "how do I get back to the shore?" He smiled and took my hand and said "why go back? Who needs the shore when you can walk on water?" He turned to the open sea and said "come child.....walk with me."

Questions June 1 2015

I am sitting on a bridge made of stone. I am wearing a white dress and I am barefoot. I am about 8yrs old in this encounter. I notice it is cool outside and I look up at the night sky. I see all the stars way above my head. I study them a moment as I sit there. Then I look down at the water and I reach down and touch my finger to the still water.  I watch the ring on the water go out from my finger. I watch as it gets larger and larger till I can no longer see its ripples. I pulled my hand back and just looked at the water. I laid down on my stomach and looked at the night sky on the top of the water. when the rings went away the water was like a mirror. It gave the illusion that the sky and water where one, never ending.  I then saw a face appear in the water next to mine. I sat back on my knees and looked up I saw Jesus sating there. He looked down at me and touched my face. Jesus asked "What is troubling you child?"  I looked down at the water and I said "me". he sat down on the edge of the bridge made of stone. I moved so that my legs hung over the edge like his. Jesus said "You sometimes expect more from you then I do.  Some of the things you are trying to accomplish are not for you child, they never where. Some are just unrealistic and lead to destruction. Learn to relax and enjoy where you are, let peace come to your troubled heart." I let out a sigh and I said "I just hurt inside and there is so much conflict with who I am and what I am." He nudged me, smiled and said "I know who you are." I looked down at the water and sighed. I looked up at him and said "Why does this all have to be so hard? My heart feels like it is being torn into a million pieces and there is nothing I can do to stop it." he wrapped his arm around me and said "Child....Look at the water what do you see?" I said I see the reflection of the stars on the water." He looked out over the water and said "do those stars hold themselves up?" I looked up and answered "No...no they don't" Jesus said "What makes you think you can hold yourself up? I know your heart is hurting, I can feel it, But give me the pieces let me put it back together. You are trying so hard to do it on your own. You have tried to deal with this in your own way....Child it only leads to destruction. Destruction causes YOU more pain." I said "and others." Jesus took my hand and said "I am talking about you...no one else. Your actions can hurt others but I am concerned right now with you." I looked at him and asked "so...now what?" He studied my face a moment then said "Just know I Love You." I looked down at the water and said "what do you want from me?" He pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me and said "Nothing...I just want to love you" I began to cry and he just held me. He began to whisper over me and then would kiss my head. II couldn't make out what he was saying though. I then  felt  the wind pick up. I saw a light  off in the distance on the water began to dane with the wind and move across the water towards us. when it got to us it swirled around us wrapping us in light. I felt peace and calm come over me. the light then became so bright I had to close my eyes then it  was all gone