Monday, February 13, 2017

Double Minded

Double Minded 2014

I was standing in front of a old greenish 2 story house. I walked up the sidewalk to the steps. I looked around me and saw this large covered porch. The floor of the porch was covered in a brownish/red colored carpet. I saw the flower beds that surrounded the front of the porch, and I noticed all the flowers where dead. I saw a old rocking chair off to my right. It was brown and looked like It had been there a long time. I walked up the steps slowly, when I got to the screen door I noticed the door behind it had 6 major dead bolt type locks. I opened the screen door and looked at this door covered in locks. It was solid wood and had 6 locks on it. I felt the wind pick up and I closed my eye's. The wind whipped around me, I then opened my eye's and placed my hand on the door. My hand went through the door, it caught me off guard and I went to touch the door again but my hand went through it. I took a deep breath and let it go and stepped through the door with 6 locks. When I got to the other side I heard all the locks click I turned and saw the door open. Bright white light filled the doorway and I saw two massive angels standing guard outside the door. One turned and walk through the door and stood in the doorway. The angel smiled but said nothing.
I turned away from the angel and looked around the room. I was standing in a small living room, and it was completely empty. The floor was made of old wood in it's beginning stages of rot. It creeped and moaned with every step I took. I noticed to my left was a closed door. I saw in front was the dining room then kitchen. I saw 2 more closed rooms off the left side of the dining room. the walls where a off white and the air had a dusty haze to it. There were two windows on my right in the living room and one in the dining room. Both were covered with a pull down blind. they where stained yellow and sagging. I took a few steps forward when I saw and image of me standing in the door way of the kitchen. The image was washed of all color and a black smoke hovered around it like a dense fog. The image of me spoke and said,"there is nothing here for you to fix!" she fell to he knees and began sobbing. Her tears where flowing like a small stream leaving a pool of tears all around her where she knelt. I took a few more steps toward this image of myself when she yelled with such despair in her voice "All is lost here....I am worthless.....I am nothing!" She covered her face and went back to crying. I walked over to her and before I could put my hand on her back she looked up with a small glimmer of hope in her eye's, and whispered "Mahtava, you have found His Light? You glow with HIS love!" This image of me slowly stood and with her hand reached out to touch my face. Before she could touch my face two men appeared in the door way behind her. The man on my left said in a low stern voice "It is hopeless here, Mahtava!! Be gone! Be forever bound to your sins!!" I looked up and the darkened image of me slowly knelt back down and put her forehead to the floor an continued to weep. "I looked at the two men behind her for a moment and said "I think your time here is done." The man on my left let out a laugh, "You speak like you have some sort of authority over me, You don't!" My spirit began to stir and a breeze blew through the house and around me. I heard I AM whisper in my ear " I am with you." I closed my eyes a moment as the man began to taunt me. I focused on I AM's voice. Then I opened my eye's the man taunting me stopped and looked me up and down, "You are alone here! He is NOT with you!" Remembering the sound of I AM's voice and feeling it echo throughout my being I said "My Father. He is with me." The two men became angry and screeched so loud I covered my ears. When they stopped I saw both their eyes turn black as the void. They came at me but like lightning the angels that stood behind me came between us. The angels drew their swords and the two men slowly fell to their knees.  I looked down at the darkened image of me and I reached down to her "Come with me I can help you." She looked up at me, tears flowing like small streams and not a hint of life in her eye's she said "You can't help me. I am a shadow of what you once where brought here to taunt you, to make you believe this is who you are." She reached up her hand as if she wanted to touch me abut slowly pulled it back and said in a low voice "but. But I am not this darkened image, am I?" She looked up at me and hope filled her washed out eye's and they became blue. She looked down at her hands and said "I. I am a child of light!" She began to glow and the darkness around her faded and she smiled as she faded into the light. The two men I knew now to be demons became angry. The began to swear at me and yell things in another language at me. But when they tried to stand to come at me the angels fought them. I watched for a moment and I began to realize the real battle was with myself. I looked down at my body as it began to glow in a soft white light. I looked up and saw Jesus standing in the doorway where the demons once stood. I looked at him and everything around us faded into the light. I looked at my hands then to him, "She was my past?" He smiled and nodded yes. I felt so much love swell inside me and I ran to Jesus and with open arms he embraced me. I began to cry, not out of sorrow but realizing I had been....redeemed.